Showing posts with label love. Show all posts
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Thursday, November 29, 2012

There couldn't be a perfect ending

There is a joint initiative from the experienced bloggers to develop the fiction writing skills of the fellow bloggers. They conduct workshop giving us the basic plot around which we have to build the story. This is the third edition and my first one. This time Leo has given us the basic plot which you can read here. And below is my entry for this round. The entry is also put up in the Indifiction blog here.

Part-I


I stood frozen for a minute. I stood there like I was paralyzed. Not by the disease but by the incidents. The day couldn't have gone worse than this. I was standing in an orphanage  in my constituency. This was the very orphanage where Sandhya grew after the accident which had taken her parents. The conversation with the old man still haunted me.



“How is Sandhya?” 

“She is fine, sir. She is in fact in a great form helping NGOs in their activities. ”

“I know her social participation. I asked about her health?”

“Health? What is there about her health? She is healthy! May I know who you are and why you are asking this?”

“I am the doctor who used to visit this home once every week some 10 years back. I also used to be the psychiatric advisor for Sandhya. Had not she mentioned me?”

“Psychiatric? What the hell?”

He told the events of ten years back. He also told me how far the accident in which she lost her dear parents had affected and depressed her. He also told me about the abnormal behavior of Sandhya during those days which I have not seen in her since our first meeting. I doubted the doctor but when I called the old manager of the orphanage  he reluctantly accepted the fact. And, I decided to call off the campaign and called my secretary. 

“Call off the campaign which is scheduled for the evening. I am done for the day. I am retiring to home now.”

“Sir, But the party head may question you regarding the cancellation.”

“I will take care of that. Ask the driver to leave home. I will drive to home.”

“Aahh.. Yes sir!”

I felt like the world was falling out of my hands. I had blows back to back today. First was Sandeep’s call in the morning. And now this doctor. Why on earth worst things are happening to me? I haven't done anything bad to anyone. I have been a virtuous guy even to the most sordid ones. I should have been a common man. Only after I had pursued this politics stream, things started going bad. Why did I take up this? I am a politician turned engineer. My blood line is a political one where our duty is to serve people. But I don't know if all the other political bloodlines take an oath to serve people. But mine does. My grandfather served as the finance minister during the tenure of the first Chief Minister of Madras Presidency whereas my father had been a Rajya Sabha member. Though I had plans for starting a management consultancy, I pursued this line due to my father’s death. That was a year back and the party immediately allocated me the same constituency as my father’s but this time it is for the state elections. Yes, I am contesting for the Member of Legislative Assembly from my own constituency. Our party’s rival assumed that this constituency is so easy to pluck from our side and so my party head has tipped me to be a minister once I win this contest.

I had hated this government since my childhood. I hated the corruption and the lazy way of these people. Initially I protested against my father’s idea of joining the party but eventually gave it in. It was my mother who advised me that I could change the way in which the government is working. So I took up this field thinking that I could put my part in cleaning up the country and that I have enough money as bank balance and a lot of assets and liabilities. I am doing well in this campaign now and I am genuine. I have earned a huge respect and response from the locals. My wife is giving me ideas and suggestions as far the promises are concerned. The polls conducted by the media and the college students are in favor of me. This campaign is a taxing one and I could not have done this without Sandhya. She gives me the moral support and the self-confidence which is the most needed one for the victory. Sandhya! I married Sandhya who worked in the same company where I worked. When she joined my office, the first information I learnt about her was that her parents were long dead in an accident. I also heard that she stayed at an orphanage teaching small kids there. My sympathy for her had turned into love. There was a little protest from my father's side initially but my mother cajoled him to accept and we have been leading a great life so far except this problem which is troubling my mind.

I rode my new wine red BMW X6 in NH-66 at a speed of 125 Kms/Hr. A speed too high for a soft person like me and a road of this type. As usual, I switched on my Music Player which started playing songs in a shuffle. The conversations with Doctor and Sandeep went on in my sub-conscious mind. I am devastated and the mirror showed my worried face. I planned the way I am going to tell her about Sandeep and ask her about the doctor. I called her but she didn’t pick up the call. I didn’t try for the second time. What if Sandeep has done the way he had told? Anyhow, I made a vow that I should not hurt her by my words.


Part-II


This could not be happening to me. He is not the kind Sandeep told me. Sandeep should have done it for the money. I think I saw fury and greed in his eyes. He should be a sordid and a horrendous one. But on the contrary what if the photos were true and not morphed? What if Sandeep is true? What if my husband has cheated me? Oh no, Deepak is a trustworthy-one. I can count on him. But these photos are showing me that I am wrong. God please be merciful. Please tell me that I am wrong and Deepak is not. Please help me. I wailed.

“Amma!” The servant-maid called me. 

“What?”

“I heard you shouting and sobbing. Any problem?”

“Are you eaves-dropping? Now get to the ground floor and do your goddamn work you stupid nut less crack!” I shouted.

She apparently went to a state of trauma for a moment, stood there for a minute and left. She had not seen me in this hysterical state. No one else had. My gaze returned to the photos. These photos have showed my psychic nature which hid in me for a long time. I feared that I will let all loose if I see Deepak.

I had none other than Deepak in this world to rely on, to tell things, to share happiness, to spend time with, and to believe completely. I cannot stand if he has cheated me. I wish I had not seen Sandeep today morning. I wish I had not talked to him. I wish I had not seen the photos. I wish I had not believed them. I wish.

“Shit! Shit! Shit!”

I tried to recall his face and his hideous conversation.


It was around 9 A.M. in the morning. Someone rang the door bell. 

“Saravana, See who it is!”

“Okay mam.”

After brief moments, Saravanan came to my room and told me that the guest was a friend of Deepak and his name was Sandeep. I told Saravanan to make him wait in the living room and provide him something to eat. He left the place. I dressed properly and got down the stairs. I had not seen him before and that was our first encounter. God knows how many are still left with him.

“Hi, I am Sandeep. I am an old friend of your better half Mr.Deepak! I worked as his assistant in his office.”

“Hi Sandeep!”

He smiled curving his lips. I didn't feel comfortable with that guy unsure about the reason. I felt uneasy. I often shifted my position in my seat. I felt as if I am exposed in front of him. I wanted to run away covering to my room. I gazed into his dark blue eyes. The eyelids closed and opened almost incessantly. He had combed his hair like a corporate with a straight silver line separating his scalp into two equal halves. He had a shaven face except for a small puff of hair below his lower lip. He was wearing a jean and a T-shirt with a coolers in it. His shoes were polished well. It almost shone. This guy could easily attract anyone. A lady of any sort, kind and living. But his same eyes also showed me that he should be cold-blooded. I wondered why he should be so persistent in meeting me! I also concluded that I should finish my meeting with this guy as soon as possible! I went straight into the matter!

“So, Sandeep what brings you here in the absence of my husband? Shall I make a call asking him to come home for an hour or so? He should be pleased to meet you like I do now.”

Well, I should say that he was actually shaken hearing a statement of this kind! He looked deeply troubled yet he maintained his sexy smile.

“That would not be necessary maam. He should be busy in his campaign. I wish that he wins.”

“That’s so nice of you!”

“So how is your husband? Is he well? Has he mentioned about me?”

“He is absolutely fine. Had you watched televisions, you would have known his elegance. And sorry, he had not mentioned a lot about you but that you always pestered him for money sir!”

“How could he possibly tell only that?”

“Why not sir? Why should not he mention about your annoyance in this matter?”

He frowned for a second but regained his composure almost immediately.

“Didn't he tell anything at all other than this?”

“What are you expecting him to tell me about you sir possibly other than this?”

For the second time, I made him frown though I felt uneasy.

“Oh he would certainly create a bad image about me. For I know his dark secrets!”

I wanted to shout out “You Bastard, get out now!” But my curiosity took the better of me. There it ended up with a few photos of my husband and a girl named Aruna. The ringing of the doorbell brought me back to present. I prayed that it shouldn't be my husband.

“Coming, sir!” Saravanan said. 



Part-III


I recalled my conversation with Sandeep. He was my assistant in the company at Bangalore. To cut short, he is a grievous squalid money-laundering monster. He set out his girls to be close with the rich guys and shoots photos to make money. That was his work in Chennai. Bangalore was a new place for him and he was quiet for a few years. Then he started his monstrous work. Once in a party, he set out one girl to talk to me.

“Hey, Deepak. I work in your rival company. And I am a great fan of your Economic policies and Management techniques.”

“Thank you!” I managed a smile.

“Let us have a sip of beer!” She called me.

“I don’t drink! Thanks for the invite.”

“Ha, here is the teetotaler! Hey one night ya” She pulled me by my hand. I lost my balance and fell over her. Immediately I withdrew from the floor. Actually I withdrew from her. But she didn't leave me. I realized there were a few flashes but could not spot them. I stormed out of the place. I heard her curses. I don’t even know her name. I tried to locate her in that company the next day and it ended up that there was no person in that name.

I came to know that it should have been the work of Sandeep from one of my buddies in Chennai and he actually praised me for controlling myself. I fired him immediately yet he never troubled me with those photos he had. I wondered. A decade has passed since then.

He must have planned it. With the election in 10 days, he called me and threatened me to withdraw from the contest else he would hand over the photos to the media. I wondered what could be the reason? I controlled my fury and told him to do whatever he can for I was clean. He told that he would show me a sample today and I would learn that sample from my home. I understood all about that. He had threatened to show those photos to my Sandhya.

I tried not to care about this and continued with my campaign and that is where I heard that devastating news. I was deeply troubled about Sandhya rather than her problem. Why the hell didn't she confide in me that she has under gone the psychiatric advice? I was in a complete dilemma whether to tell Sandhya about Sandeep or not. I decided against it thinking that it might trigger her mental problem. I looked to my side to see the mind-blowing airport. I am admired by the sight of it and it promised me of a great Tamilnadu in future. I reached home and parked my car in the shed.

I hate to wear Dhoti which is a necessary dress (A uniform) for politicians down south. And so I was wearing a shirt and a pant which is neither too formal nor too casual. I walked reluctantly and came to the front door. I rang the bell.

“Coming, Sir!” yelled Saravanan.


Part-IV


Here he is at last. Nothing is happening today as per my wish. Sandeep’s meet. My rage took the better of me today. I watched the broken vases and the crumbled papers. For the first time after several years from that ghostly night, I felt that I am unprotected. I lost my parents in an accident. That is what I told everyone including Deepak. But that was not true. I looked at the only memory of my parents. My father’s watch. I don’t remember all of it. Yet I remember the most important part.

His smile. We were all travelling in a Sumo to our place in Gujarat. Other than three of us, there was one more in the car. He was my father’s partner and he was driving the car. He stopped it in the highway and told that he needed to take a piss. Suddenly there were people around the car. It all happened in an instant. I saw the dead bodies of my parents and the partner’s smile. He threw me out and drove the Sumo back with my parents. With their dead bodies. I begged for my every day food. At times when people mock at me, I used to bite them or scratch them that they considered me dangerous and threw me in the orphanage. I had some doctors who slowly controlled my rage and made me what I am today. I have not confided my darkest secret of me to anyone. The only people who knew that I had undergone psychiatric tests were the doctor and the home’s supervisor. That supervisor was dead years ago and that doctor is in America now. No one else could know this I thought.

I had controlled my rage for all my married years but now I let it loose. God save me. Someone knocked my door.

“Sandhya!”

It is my husband’s voice!

I didn't know if I should open the door showing him the ugly face of mine and seeing his face. There were the broken vases and in the bed were some photographs. I cried. I chided my parents for not taking me with them. But Deepak is not just a man for me. He loved me a lot. He has been protecting me like a child for all these years. I struggled between my doubt and love. I wanted to ask him the question. I wanted to ask him about the photographs plucking his collar. I strolled towards the door and opened it. There he was standing with tears in his eyes. Oh, he knew about the photographs. His tears mean that they are true. I am betrayed but I see love in his eyes.



Part-V


The front door opened. And Saravanan immediately told about the visit of my friend. I immediately knew who that visitor could be. I was annoyed and I knew that things would not the same between me and Sandhya as before though I would explain the details. I didn't know what to do. I could not see her anywhere in the hall or in the living room. I stormed in and looked. The stairs were empty from where she usually smiles at me when I enter the home. I easily noticed that her door was bolted on the inside which is unusual. I threw myself on the sofa. Tears welled up in my eyes. I couldn't do anything for I am helpless. Shit! Things have gone wrong because of me. I must do something to ease the situation. I slowly climbed up the stairs. And there I stood in front of her door. I heard her sobs. Suddenly everything went blank in my mind. I turned around to my room but decided against it. I knocked the door.

“Sandhya!” I called her.

After a few seconds, she opened the door. I saw tears in her eyes. She was sobbing.



Part-VI


There was a tension in the surrounding air. There prevailed an eerie silence for neither of them spoke. Deepak entered the room and the first thing to get his attention was the photographs in the bed. Later he also noticed the broken vases and the crumbled papers. He knew that he had brought her former-self back. He chided himself for that.

None spoke. Not even the echo of any faintest sound hit their ear membrane. Both stared at each other. There was an unconditional love in the eyes of both of them. There started a mute conversation between them.

“What you could tell about this Mr. Deepak?”

“Please let me explain!”

“I didn't expect this Deepak. I thought that you are the world to me. I thought I could trust you at any circumstance. You betrayed me!”

Tears rolled over Deepak’s cheeks. And there were tears in her eyes well. Sandhya thought that she had it all wrong. It was Deepak who gave her a feeling that she too was adorable. It was Deepak who gave her a reason to live. It was Deepak who helped her earn a huge respect in the society. She thought that he could not have betrayed her. But these photographs?

“I saw your doctor!” He motioned towards her father’s watch and those broken vases.

“I thought that…” Before she could complete, Bhuvana yelled from the hall.

“Amma, the guy who visited our home today morning was arrested for threatening the rich by the photographs he took taking advantage of the unexpected situation with the help of the girls he hired. The police are telling that there are several business tycoons who have lodged a complaint against him for his threats.”

She chided herself for her momentary doubt. She slowly turned her gaze from him. He too didn't want to ask her about her psychiatric tests.

“We must not let our dog into the bedroom here after. See the damage it has done.” Deepak laughed.

“We must not let the stray dogs enter our gate even. See what it has done to us.” Sandhya too laughed.

She ran towards him and hugged him. He concluded that things would not be the same as before. But it would be much better than before!

Wednesday, November 7, 2012

My third grandmother

"Those who asked for Thoppampatti, please get ready with your luggage. The next stop is Thoppampatti" shouted the conductor. Ramasamy woke with a start. 

This is my birthplace. The place I was brought up and the place we abandoned due to my work 8 years back. For those who don't know about Thoppampatti, it is a small village in Tirupur district. The nearest railway station is Tirupur district and the airport is Coimbatore. One can see it as a place full of agricultural greenish lands and the grazing cattle. Every piece of land here is covered with greenery.

The bus stopped and we got down. Me, my wife and my son. My son requested this bus journey. And surprisingly I was the only one who was standing in the bus stop. I remember those days when we used to go to our school in Dharapuram by bus as a gang of students always crowding the very same bus stop. This bus stop always served as a place for discussions of those jobless people. They used to come here after their lunch and talk till the sunset and the moon appeared. It is empty now.

I walked through the very same muddy road which was sandwiched between pieces of green lands. It was the only route to the village. My thoughts wavered. Why did I come here after 8 years? I was recalling my childhood and teenage days.

Those were the days of innocence and happiness. I was the only son of my parents who had a great respect among the people here. Every decision in the village was consulted with my father before being announced. My father was not a big landlord but an ordinary farmer who had only a few acres of land as I remember. Still everyone respected him because of his principles and actions. And as his son, I was also respected by the people. Boys and girls of my age considered me as their leader and we were happily spending our time. My mother was a house wife. She took care of cows and buffaloes in home. I remember the way she used to speak to them. She also taught me the language of the animals. I loved being with her and enjoyed talking to animals sounding their "moos" and "woos" well. My grandparents lived in my uncle's home a few meters away from ours. Other than three of us, the only six sensed being in that home was our servant-maid. 
Her name was..... 

Oh I don't remember her name. No, I don't know it neither does anybody. But I used to call her "aaya" which is the local term of "Grandmother". She also used to call me as "thambi" which meant "brother" but it was also used to call their lovable people especially their children. 

I don't remember as of when she joined as servant-maid in my home. She always told me that she had served my grand-father and had seen the growth of both my father and me. She never ceased to talk to me whenever she got the time. She had none at that time as far as I knew. Her only son died of a choleric attack during his childhood. However there were a few in the nearby villages who were her relatives. And yet no one called on her and they were horrendous people. She also never took care as to meet them. She found it completely happy and comfortable in our home. My father had built her a small room behind our home in which she lived. I used to be there always.

I still remember her daily chores. She used to get up at 4.30 in morning and sweep the entrance. She used to put a big 'kolam' in front of our home. Around 5.00, she used to enter our home from behind and prepare coffee and wake my mom and dad. I always sleep till 6, even today. She helped my mom in breakfast and lunch. Then around 6.00 she used to wake me by her village folk songs. Then she got busy helping me in getting ready to school. Though my father insisted her daily to take rest considering her age, she didn't stop helping us. She used to drop me to school and get to my father's field and work. Around 2 P.M. she had her lunch and talked with my mom till the sunset. From the sunset till I sleep, she spent her time with me.


She always narrated stories not about her but all about others. I could easily recall her stories for they are of common men and are neither historical nor fictitious. She always engaged herself in teaching me at least one 'Thirukkural' everyday. But I usually took more than a week to do one and she expected me to do one per day. Every story of her had morale and dramatic ending. She argued that a life without morals is a life without breath. She didn't know a thing about the science or the math. I taught her to read and write letters. I took a vow to make her efficient in both skills. But after all, she could only manage to put her signature. 

She didn't know to cook briyani. Neither kuruma nor other fancy dishes. Yet her ordinary dishes were exemplary. I have not found a sambar as tasty as hers. She used to sit and grind all the masalas herself chiding the chemicals in the masalas bought in the shop. She handpicked every fruit from the garden she maintained and cooked our daily food. She always managed to add a herb in our daily food either directly or indirectly stating that it always protected our health.


Once, I got chicken pox. A disease was then viewed from a religious point and was never given any medical treatment. The person would be made to lie on the spread of the neem leaves, a well-known disinfectant. A bunch of neem leaves would be used as a "visiri" (a fan). It was my aaya who was sitting beside me swinging those leaves to make me cool. As far as I remember, she neither ate nor slept those days. 

She usually smiled showing all her teeth. Her teeth were always red in colour because of her betel leaves and one of them was affected by tooth cavity; It was right bottom I think. She always had betel leaves in a box in her hand. I don't remember her without that box even a day. One can easily note her presence with the odour of the chewed betel leaves with lime. She always filled the surrounding air with her own folk songs which had a lot of value. She never walked but ran. She was so active and fast in all her actions. She had been so wise that she even helped my dad in taking decisions. She always wore a cotton saree (red or blue only) and never let her hair loose. She had a short-sight but her hearing power was strong. She had the hearing power as that of a dolphin. She never had made out of the village. This village was all she knew.

I left for Chennai for my under graduation studies. I missed her right from her presence 
to her talks. When I went to my village for the first time after joining college, I wanted to buy something for her. I went to my village and took her to town. I made her check her eye power and got her a spec. She smiled showing her decayed tooth. For the first time in my life, I was so happy. Years rolled over and I got placed in a company in Bangalore. My contact with her got reduced. Yet whenever I visited my village, I spent more time with her rather than my parents. I often surprised her with new things. She never understood the technology and refused to use electrical grinders or mixers over the mechanical ones. 

My marriage happened a few years later and she crossed her village for the first time to Coimbatore where it took place. I let her name my first and only child. She named him her grandfather name. My wife was a professor and she could not resign her job. I could not take care of my child the same way as I was taken care in my young days. So I called my parents and also her. But she refused. I was astonished and she told that she would always live in her father's and son’s land and never leave it. My father's friend occupied our house and we had then given him strict instructions to take very good care of her. He obliged. My father visited her frequently and I almost made it once a year. But later my father's health had made long travel difficult. But I decided that I should not leave her and visited two times a year midst my busy schedules. So visiting my village almost stopped for my parents except for regular phone calls....

"Thambi, neram ayirchu..." (Son, it’s almost time)

My train of thoughts stopped and I came back to the present. I saw my home after a long time. I am behind my home now in front of that single room. I stared at my aaya's lifeless body in front of me. 
None is so lucky to get a servant-maid like I got. She isn't an ordinary servant-maid but my third grandmother and the closest of all.

Last night I received a call that my beloved aaya died. 


Wednesday, September 26, 2012

I kept my word!


Suddenly she saw him everywhere...

"I will haunt you forever," he used to tell her always sarcastically to look at her reaction and would laugh.


25 April, 2012. The next day was her wedding. Her parents had arranged the three day wedding function in a grandiose manner with the whole town astonishing at its sumptuous way. However the center of attraction was the bride. She looked radiant and ravishing in her engagement dress which was offered by the bridegroom's side. Everyone out there was expecting the next day. Two people, who were distant in their hearts, were going to blend into a single lovable life. Was it going to be adorable?



She again spotted him laughing, “Why are you sad? After all, you are the bride!" He seemed a little sarcastic. She was on the verge of bursting out. Tiny bubbles peeked out from her eyes and she urged to control it. He again mumbled, "I kept my word." She asked him, “What did you tell?" He ran away. She couldn't spot him for a while.

She went to her room flooding with his memories. She was exhausted and was hyperventilating. This left her rattled and even a little peevish. She watched the happy face of her kith and kin from the portico of the first floor. She also watched his face and his eccentric reaction. It was raining cats and dogs outside. The lightening and the thunder petrified the little kids. Suddenly there was a huge crowd calling her name. She could hear them but couldn't respond. She had fainted hitting the ground floor before people came to catch her. Everyone went dazzled for a moment. It all happened so quickly. Ambulance arrived and she was taken to the hospital. Doctors couldn't do anything. It was a massive heart attack which caused her death. Every one of them was devastated. Everyone returned to the places and in a short time, the wedding function turned out into a death one.

Two days after the remorseful happening, her mother went to her room and she switched on her daughter's laptop. She browsed her drives to check what could have caused her to be pressurized? Indeed there was a document named "Rahish." Her mother knew that he was her daughter's bestest friend.

February 2, 2004:

Saw this guy named Rahish.
What a talkative one?!
Chatterbox. 

June 15, 2004

Talked to Rahish for the first time.
He is a chatterbox. I find him fascinating.Time ran fast today with him. Became his friend in FB.

October 28,2005


He sent me a "Hi" today to my mobile.
I got his number from his friend a long time ago but I didn't text him. Ego.
Waited for his text! And he did today.
He is so much energetic and exuberant.
Msgd him for a long time.

January 18, 2006


Today is my birthday. He came to my home early morning to wish me.
I loved his gift. An earring. A simple yet an amative present for me!
Spent only a small time with him. It was my fault.
I was waiting for him to become close with me. Now he is.
But I am keeping distance from him.

March 25, 2006

Today is his birthday.
He sent a text to me requesting me to accompany him for morning train. 
I purposely caught the next train to his. I loved it whenever he got angry.
I loved it.
But I couldn't avoid him today as it is his birthday. He became so close to me.
In other words, I became so close to him.

May 17, 2007


We were chatting for the entire day. The whole day.
He said today "I won't marry anyone else other than you!"
I replied, “I won't marry you! A prince is waiting for me!"
He told me, “Okay! I too will marry a princess and not you!"
We mocked at each other enjoying the envious look on our faces.

September 25, 2009


Two years ran so fast after our college. 
He always tells me that he likes me a lot.
I am not sure if he is so much in love with me to accept me. 
I am not so brave.
We will be so good friends always.

April 5, 2010


He isn't opening his mouth. Neither me! Oh Goddamn it!
I couldn't resist. I am not brave. I like him a lot.
It would be so ideal if we live together. But I am so much frightened.

December 22, 2010

Now-a-days, He started telling this often.
"I won't marry anyone else other than you!" But then he used to tell this.
"I told that just for fun! You must like me na!"
"I will come for your wedding!"
I am so much frightened.

July 12, 2010

"Do you have anything to tell me?" I asked.
"I like you a lot! Nothing else. I will haunt you forever."
Silence.

August 19, 2010


He died today. Yeah it was an appalling accident. 
Death has taken Rahish from me!
I don't know what I will do without him?
I am heart-broken! Save me!

November 8, 2010

I didn't talk to anyone for the past two months.
I am broken beyond repair. I loved him a lot.
Did he too? He did!!! I have his mobile now! 
Saw a msg in his drafts which was intended to be sent to me.

""I love you a lot! I want to be with you! Can I? 
Will you include me in your life? I am afraid. 
I don't know what you have in your mind?""

I loved you idiot. You didn't tell me!

April 17, 2011

My parents are asking me about my marriage. 
Everyone around me asked the same.
I am not ready to be the better half of some one else!
I don't want marriage!

September 30, 2011

My parents have fixed my marriage against my refusal. 
Please, I don't want.
Rahish!
I cried. I cried a lot.

December 24, 2011


My engagement today. I hate it.
Shit!

March 8, 2012


He kept his word. He didn't marry anyone else.
But did I?

April 24, 2012


Day after tomorrow is my marriage!
Rahish why didn't you take me away with you?


Her mother cried. She cried a lot. When she intended to close the document, there popped a small box with a message "wait". Something was updating. She fainted after seeing the document. There was an additional note.

April 27, 2012

I kept my word. Rahish is with me here!




Image: Harikrishna Raghuraman

Tuesday, September 11, 2012

Love from Mom and Lessons from Dad!





This post has been selected by BlogAdda as one of the top posts or BlogAdda's Tangy Tuesday picks Sep 11, '12.


Well, the recent evolution of life on this humanly Earth has been a fast one compared to the older ones. It took approximately 3.5 billion years for the first multicellular organism to evolve on earth after its formation. From then on, for every 150 million years a new class of species appeared here. 200,000 years have passed since the origin of the genus homo. This proves that introduction is more complicated than evolution. The time or the persistence for the evolution is very small when compared to the introduction or the creation.


Today, we have learnt to ask our needs and meet our requirements, nurture our interests and fulfill our dreams, do our duties and live our lives. We have been successfully passing the evolutionary stage of our life since the day we learnt to use our sixth sense. Indeed we are progressing in our life at a faster pace. But the question is that do we think of the more tangled creation. Do we think about our creation or do we care only about our evolution?

The reason for our so-called efficacious life! The creation of our lives! Our father and mother. Do we realize their value and importance in our life? Have we lost the due respect and consideration for them? Today is my Parents' wedding day. I would like to tell them on this day that I really do love them a lot.

Amma! (Mother)

“My mother was the most beautiful woman I ever saw. All I am I owe to my mother. I attribute my success in life to the moral, intellectual and physical education I received from her.” ―George Washington.

Life is a collection of mesmerizing memories. To become exciting and exuberant recalling all the happy moments of your life, you need the drop of love. Beauty, brilliance, knowledge, memory, sagacity and others may be your innate ones. But that one quality which makes you superior to all the other species is the art of loving and being loved.

Love! Pure Love! Unexpected Love! Unintentional Love! Who else other than your mom can give you this fabulous feeling? What else on this earth can match the warmth of your mother's heart? Have you ever felt safe or protected in others' hands? Have you ever seen anyone so happy when you are or so sad when you are?

A mother's love is matchless. She is the incarnation of the holy God. God has sent her to this earth because he can't take care of all His children. He wants every one of His children to be given the utmost care. He trusts no one else. He creates a mother for each child and leaves all His worries about the child to her. Every mother on this earth does the unique job given by God to protect her child. She looks after her child with utmost care forgetting every other thing including her desires and needs. Everything she tells, everything she thinks and every single thing she does is all for her child's welfare.

Oh! If you still don't understand the feeling of your mother, Go and see the hapless ones! Those who don't have that purest relation on this earth. See how they suffer without her. Who will you confide your secrets in? Who will you tell your daily experiences? Who will you ask to do your things with rights? Who else will you ask to love and protect you?

A mother's position is irreplaceable in everyone's life fellas!

Appa! (Father)

“That was when the world wasn't so big and I could see everywhere. It was when my father was a hero and not a human.” ― Markus Zusak, I Am the Messenger

Life is also a collection of breath-taking moments. To become efficacious and proud in your life recalling the success moments, you need the drop of motivation. None could match your mother's happiness at your moment of success. But the reason behind your success is always your father who is comparatively strict when compared to your mother. I do find in most of the cases that a child finds its father a distant one in its child hood age. A boy/girl finds his/her father a strict one in his/her school age. A youth finds the father an inspiring one in his/her teenage.

A mother shows her unconditional love right from your birth time. But a father puts certain disciplinary restrictions to shape you. And after he finds that it is enough, he turns out to be your best friend. Yes, the father in your teenage becomes your hero and a role model. He waits till your right moment to turn into your best friend. If he too shows his love for you, you will easily take it advantageous and will never get to know the importance of your life. He waits. He too has love for you sometime more than your mother's. But he waits. He is not hard-hearted but he waits for you to become self-sustained in your life. He leads multiple roles in your life. He is your adviser, dad, guide, friend, motivator, philosopher, teacher and what not!

Oh! If you still don't understand the nature of your father, Go and see the cursed ones! Those who don't have that richest relation on this earth. See how they suffer without the beam of support in their life. Who will you make so proud in your life of your victories? Who else will teach you the basic things of life? Who will help, inspire, motivate, scold and teach you? Who else will love you in clandestine?

A father's importance is inevitable in everyone's life fellas!

A mother gives you the basic essence of life, the love. It’s the foundation of your life. And a father gives you the basic lessons of your life. It’s the building which you lay over your foundation. Love and lessons are the two sides of a coin and both are inevitable.

Realize your mom's love and Receive your dad's lessons!


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And I dedicate this post to my amma and appa on this day. This is their 21st anniversary. They have been with me throughout the ups and downs of my life. They have witnessed every phase of my growth. In fact they are the ones who adore me a lot. My small contribution for this wonderful day! Love you both!

P.S: What I have said in this blog is in general. My mother and father are multi-billionaires in their love and advice. I have never had the capacity to receive them in a large amount! :D Just kidding mom and dad :P

Saturday, July 28, 2012

Happy Birthday Sister


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17 years back, I was nearly 3 years old. I don't remember things that happened on this date. I wish I could remember them. This date has always an exulting and a wonderful impression in my heart. My mom told me that I was outside with dad and grandmother taking care of me. I wish I should have been inside viewing the first sight. My only sibling's birthday today. 28.07.1995. Love you!




I am still excited by the thoughts of how you would have been in your childhood days. I have heard mom quoting you as a silent yet an adamant girl. I still remember the way you threw my certificates down because you didn't get any in your L.K.G. It still makes me surprised the way you told that you would get all of 'em in the next year. You did get them. How much perseverance you had in an age in which others don't even know that word! Love you!


Amma has always found it difficult to put up with us. We grew up together playing, laughing, chatting, shouting, learning and most importantly fighting. I don't remember a day pass without us fighting with each other eventually leading our mom to scold us. I still remember the way you pushed me. I hit hard against the bureau. Blood started gushing out. You, my dear sister, started feeling for it, a bit crying came near frightened and touched my wound. Love you!


I am a lethargic guy but you are not. This ends up with an advice from amma and occasional scoldings. You will support her every time you think she might scold you too. Else you are always against me laughing and will silently see me. I will always wait for a strike back. But eventually I will forget and we will be together again. Love you!

It was my twelfth standard. I had fallen down from the bike and ended up with a multiple fracture. Oh I could not have gone through that without you. You helped me day-to-day. You helped me in putting my shirt on, feeding me occasionally, writing my stuffs, drawing my records, mental support. Love you!

I got a state rank in my twelfth and got a seat in Anna University. Its your support which helps me throughout my life. I always wanted to hug you and tell thank you. I am telling this now. Thank you di! Love you! 

I may have hurt you a lot, made you cry a lot. But I am sure it is I who have cried more every time than you did. I remember the way you cried a lot when I cried every weekend in Pondicherry coming back from Chennai. You consoled me. You sacrificed a lot for me! You have accepted every change for me! You have been my moral support! You have been with me always next to amma and appa! Love you!

I just don't know if I can manage without you ever in my life. I was cherishing feeding you some days back. That is the first time I have ever fed you. I am assuring you that I will be with you always! I am not sure if I will be so strong emotionally during your marriage. I always want you by my side! Love you!

Happy birthday di! Have loads of success in your upcoming years! Be strong always! Be soft always! Never reduce your affection for us - me, appa and amma for we are the ones who love you a lot! Love you always!




P.S: Today is my sister's birthday. She is seventeen now. She is all I have got. Yes I am gonna give her a present! Its a surprise!

Thursday, May 31, 2012

வளையோசை கலகல கலகலவென





 
அன்று அவள் அங்கு இருந்திருக்கவில்லை. மனம் படபடத்தது. அவன் கண்கள் எல்லா திசைகளிலும் அவளைத் தேடியது. அவள் தோழிகளிடம் சென்று கேட்டு விடுவோம் என்று எண்ணியிருந்தான். அவர்களை நோக்கி அடியெடுத்துவைத்தான். யாரும் அவன் அவளைப் பார்ப்பதைப் பார்த்து விடக்கூடாது என்பதில் தீர்மானமாய் இருந்தான் இவ்வளவு நாளும். சற்று தொலைவில் மெல்லியதாய் ஒரு குரல். தன் கழுத்தை மெதுவாக திருப்பினான். அவள் தான். அவன் உதட்டில் மெல்லியதாய் ஒரு புன்னகை.

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2 மாதங்களுக்கு முன்பு,
மதியம் 12 மணி,

அவனுடைய வேலை அப்பொழுது தான் முடிந்திருந்தது.
   
"டேய், வாடா கேன்டீன் போலாம். எனக்கு பசிக்குது. வாங்கிக் குடுடா."
"டேய் கையில காசு இல்ல டா. நாளிக்கு வேணா எடுத்துண்டு வரேன் டா"
"போடா நாயே!"
"டேய் யாருடா அவ?"
"எவ டா?"
"அங்க போறா பாரு அந்த ரெட் கலர் சுடிதார் டா!"
"அவளா! ஆமா அவளைப் பத்தி உனக்கு ஏன் தெரியனும்? தம்பி நீ செரியில்ல!"
"டேய் சும்மா தான் கேட்டேன்! சொல்ல மாட்டேன் நா போடா!"


மதியம் 1 மணி,

அவள் எந்த செக்க்ஷன்ல வொர்க்க் பண்றா என்று கண்டுபிடிச்சிடனும் என்ற எண்ணததோட அவ பின்னாடி போனான். அக்கவுண்ட்ஸ்  செக்க்ஷன்ல ரூம் நெம்பர் 10 தான். போயி பேசிடலாம்னு கிட்ட போனான். பேச்சே வரல.

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1 மாதத்துக்கு முன்,

"டேய், அவள ரொம்ப புடிச்சுர்க்கு  டா. நீ தான் டா ஹெல்ப் பண்ணனும். உன்ன விட்டா வேற யாருடா இருக்கா எனக்கு?"
"நண்பேன் டா! நா ஹெல்ப் பண்றேன்டா உனக்கு!"

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இப்பொழுது,

ஒரு நாள் அவள் இருக்கும் இடம் அருகில் சென்று உட்கார்ந்தான் தன் நண்பனோடு. அவள் பேசிக்கொண்டிருந்ததை ரசித்து பார்த்துக் கொண்டிருந்தான்.

"ஏண்டி சுபா, உன்ன எவ்வளவோ பேரு பொண்ணு பாத்துட்டா. ஏண்டி  யாருக்கும் பதில் சொல்லல? ஆத்துல வேணாம்னு சொல்லிட்டாளா  ?"
"அப்படிலாம்  இல்லடி. எனக்கு வயலின் நா ரொம்ப இஷ்டம்னு உனக்கே தெரியும். சின்ன வயசுல நா வயலின் கத்துக்கணும்னு அப்பா கிட்ட கேட்டதுக்கு பாட்டும் பரதமும் கத்துக்கோ போதும்னு சொல்லிட்டாடி"
"என்ன சொல்ல வர ?"
"வயலின் நன்னா வாசிக்க தெரிஞ்ச ஒருத்தர தான் கல்யாணம் பண்ணிப்பேன்டி!"

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1 மாதத்துக்குப் பின்,

அவர்கள் இருவரும் பேச ஆரம்பித்து 15 நாட்கள் ஆகியிருந்தது. நல்ல நட்பாக வளர்ந்தது. எல்லாவற்றையும் அவனுடன் பகிர்ந்து கொள்வாள். அவன் தன்  விருப்பத்தை சொல்வதற்குப் பயமாக இருந்தது. எங்கே அவள் பேசுவதை விட்டு விடுவாளோ என்ற பயம்!
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2 மாதங்களுக்குப் பின்,

அவனால் இப்பொழுது அவளிடம் நன்றாகவே பேச முடிந்தது. இருந்தாலும் பயம். சொல்ல முடியவில்லை.

"இன்னிக்கு கண்டிப்பா சொல்லிடறேன் டா !"
"கிழிச்ச!"

நேரில் பேச முடியாது என்று எஸ்.எம்.எஸ்-ல் சொல்லி விடலாம்னு முடிவு செய்து மெசேஜ் அனுப்பினான்.
"ஹாய்"
"ஹாய் டா"
"என்ன பண்ற?"
"டி.வி. பாக்கறேன்டா. நீ?"
"புஸ்தகம் படிக்கரேன்டி. சாப்டியா?"
"இல்ல இனி தான். நீ சாப்டியா?"
"சாப்ட்டுடேன்டி."
"அப்பறம் டா?"
(சொல்லலாமா வேணாமா- குழப்பம்)
"ஒண்ணுமில்லடி"
(முடியவில்லை அவனால்)
"டேய், அம்மா கூப்பட்ரா என்ன. போயிட்டு வரேன். அப்பறமா மெசேஜ் பண்றேன் டா! அப்பறம் ஒரு விஷயம், சீக்கரமா வயலின் நன்னா கத்துக்கோடா "
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அவனுக்கு மெதுவாகத் தான் புரிந்தது. சந்தோஷத்தில் பறந்தான்.
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வளையோசை கலகல கலகலவென கவிதைகள் படிக்குது!!!




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